The packing

I just started to pack together the things in my apartement. Every thing I put into bags and suitcases makes me feel more and more miserable. It's so hard to pack together my amazing life I've had for the last 1,5 years in this apartement. So many memories, such great time. I just finished with one shelf. And it's just the beginning.
I've been doing EVS stuff for 4 days already. I had my pre-dep last weekend, had the leaving party with M in the village and am now packing. And I will have the ticket bought today. I will leave on the 3rd of March. I've already chosen the flights, now we (me and my youth club) just have to wait for the answer if the ticket is okay, from my host org.
Hard.
Very hard.
And my heart's bleeding. A lot.