2/27/2012

The bucket list for this year

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Kerttu had a  birthday party and we all decided to make a bucket list for all of us! So here is mine:
  • An alcohol-free month
  • Bikini made out of double cream
  • Dye my hair with a semi-permanent hair colour that my friends who were in the birthday choose - bright green
  • Make a picnic to this group of friends who were at birthday
  • watch the falling stars in August for 2hrs and count all the falling stars
  • Hug some mascot.
  • Tell some random stranger something beautiful once a week.
  • Make 5 9gag posts. (There will be the first one this week)
  • Walk across the Kaarsild with bikini
  • Dance on the table
  • Not to use 9gag for one week
  • Put myself into the bone marrow donors list and donate if possible
  • Go to Zavood dressed as a Zombie

And a quote from today - "I don't know that many strangers"- by me.

2/23/2012

All you need is love!

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I'm in the village at the moment and just felt I needed to make a post here. Most of the inhabitants are already asleep, only one of them is sitting next to me, watching telly and occasionally talking to me. I just had one of my co-workers inviting me for a sit-together with Judith, who is back here from Germany!
The feeling is the best. I've had loads of people hugging me all the time, Huko just had great news from the National agency regarding the Seminary (that everything is written properly and the organization I made, was good enough for the agency).
I just feel happy. I feel as I belong here.
The feeling I have when an inhabitant is looking really really happy when they see me and then runs to me to give me a hug. And you feel the unconditional love. And it's so good. I had a year without it. Now I don't understand how I managed to survive without it. The love, the feel of truly belonging somewhere. There are no words to describe it.

Honestly, in order to be happy, all one person needs, is love!

And I don't even need to have a boyfriend who would love me. This love I already have is more than enough. It is just beautiful!

2/21/2012

Is it a dream or is it reality?

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Firstly, sorry for not posting for a while. I've been busy with work and school and haven't had much motivation to write here either. I've planned everyday to write here, but eventually by the end of the evening I notice that the day is over and I haven't done a new post.

It is nice to be back home. I was welcomed by a nice freeze and some snow which have become a bit milder now. I have seen loads of my friends, still got many to see. Heli, the new EVS, has started to work in the village and is a nice company to me. The village is mostly the same and I felt straightaway as if I had never been away. It's nice.
And school- I have realized I've become a grown-up during my year in the UK- I am more motivated to do my school stuff, pay attention in the lectures. And I spread my homework for the whole semester so that I don't pile it all up.
My English has already gone down a bit, I have difficulties remembering some words sometimes. It might be due to the exhaustion I have as well (not much free time). And even though my English is getting worse again, my Estonian is not getting much better quickly either. I still sometimes think in English and start talking to people or reply them automatically in English, without even noticing it myself.....

Do I miss England? Good question. I don't know. I guess the realization of begin away from there, hasn't hit me yet. I still feel that I can go to the Lodge every day, or to work. The memories compared to my usual trips are different. They are more real. It just came to my mind, that it wasn't a typical trip abroad that later seems to have been a dream. As it was longer, it is all real. A life. To where I could go back again. I remember the smells, the temperature, all the different feelings a lot better. People's accents, their behaviour and typical things they do. When I think of a person, I remember how they exactly were. It's sometimes sad to talk about this year.
Everybody ask me how I enjoyed my EVS - I need time to decide. It is all too fresh. In the beginning when I got home, I was a lot more negative about my job than I am now. I was slightly pissed off by some things connected to my project. Things that were left unnoticed. But as the time goes by, my opinion about my project becomes more objective. So, I guess in half a year's time, I can tell a lot less subjective opinion about my EVS: So it's better not to ask....

Right now all I can say, that my feet are itchy...... I crave to go somewhere, even though I have no time at least until summer. And no money either. I'm gonna buy myself a bicycle soon- in the best hope that it will relieve the itching in my feet (and also for the workout purposes)....

2/06/2012

Quote

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I just read from my friends' blog a sentence I had told them during my welcome party.

"We're all sisters and brothers when it comes to alcohol..."

I don't remember saying that, but hell, it's so true!

2/02/2012

Home, I'm home again

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So, on Tuesday I flied back home.
My last week in the UK was busy- packing, seeing all my friends, leisure centre. I got an Ipod Nano from work as a pressie for my leaving. I filled in lots of evaluation forms. Had some parties etc
Leaving was hard- on my last day at work I wanted to run to an empty corner and cry there in lots of cases.
It seemed unreal at the same time, that I was going to fly away in the following morning.
I had no sleep, drank lots of wine and then Keith took me to the airport at 4am.
My luggage was pressed tightly together, and there was no extra weight. Impressive :) My flight to Amsterdam was late which resulted in me running to another gate to catch my next plane. Unfortunately my luggage didn't make it that fast and me and about 10 other people didn't get their luggage in Tallinn airport. But, today I got it.
So far Ive managed to find out that fixing my computer is gonna cost me only 70 euros, instead of 250 pounds the man in England told. I've been to the hairdresser, made my contract which is 0,5 placement as a co-inhabitant in the village, saw my friends etc. Still lots to do.
It's freezing in Estonia- I'm probably spoiled by the mild British winter which was average +10. So coming to the -30 degrees is a bit freezing. At least its snowy here :) Me loves that.
And it feels as if I've never been away- everything seems to be the same. Not much has changed...Only the number of the year.
Or well, at least it seems so.
I know that I've changed. I'm not this naive childish co-dependent girl any more. I know a lot more about life and know what I want. I know what's right and what's wrong and I'm not afraid to say anything to anyone anymore.
And it feels good- to know all those things, to have seen lots of things that no one has seen besides me. To have that experience of 1 year abroad. It's lovely.