All the truly big things are without the beginning, just like the Universe- 26/27 Dec
12/28/2010
12/25/2010
So. What has happened since my last post.
Almost nothing.
Have been home for a while. I'm done with the exams for December, got some left for January.
I still have no news about EVS and it's freaking me out already.
Uhmmm. Christmas sucks- I mean I still don't feel like Christmas- I just had party with my relatives yesterday and it wasn't as much of a party as I expected it to be. Not much fun, everybody got to asleep early... Christmas with my Võru friends is also delayed to next year.... Depressive.
I guess if I had the EVS reply, everything would be more happy. Guess I'm in a stress or something like that.
Anyway, time for some quotes:
Isn't it heavenly that there is existing a smile that can secretly reduce the weight of of the big burden that all living creatures have laid on them. - 19/20 Dec
We are located only a heartbeat away from each other. -23rd Dec
Joy is not about getting things, it's inside of us. -24th Dec
Almost nothing.
Have been home for a while. I'm done with the exams for December, got some left for January.
I still have no news about EVS and it's freaking me out already.
Uhmmm. Christmas sucks- I mean I still don't feel like Christmas- I just had party with my relatives yesterday and it wasn't as much of a party as I expected it to be. Not much fun, everybody got to asleep early... Christmas with my Võru friends is also delayed to next year.... Depressive.
I guess if I had the EVS reply, everything would be more happy. Guess I'm in a stress or something like that.
Anyway, time for some quotes:
Isn't it heavenly that there is existing a smile that can secretly reduce the weight of of the big burden that all living creatures have laid on them. - 19/20 Dec
We are located only a heartbeat away from each other. -23rd Dec
Joy is not about getting things, it's inside of us. -24th Dec
12/17/2010
Still nothing....
Patience was supposed to be a virtue, wasn't it?
Unfortunately we tend to forget the things we're supposed to remember and tend to remember things we're supposed to forget. - 16th Dec.
Unfortunately we tend to forget the things we're supposed to remember and tend to remember things we're supposed to forget. - 16th Dec.
12/14/2010
There's always something good hidden in bad. And there's always something good around you!
You just have to open your eyes.
Anyway.
My tattoos are now completely healed which means that I can go to sauna again. And so I did. But I'll start from the very beginning.
The weekend before the last one I went to village again. I was in Rootsi maja. It felt so good to be there again after about a month that I hadn't been in the village. I went to the meeting of the co-inhabitants and met the another EVS volunteer, Ludwig, finally. I had wanted to meet him since he came to the village, because he is new and I want to meet new people. And I was happy to admit that he's as cool or even cooler than all the other volunteers that have been working in the village. From the very first moment I started talking to him, we had a lot to talk about. Which is great. Anyway, it was a great weekend at the village- I did my homework and talked to all the people I hadn't seen in a while.
Then I came back to Tartu where I did many exams again....
Then came the last weekend.
Firstly, on Friday we had a big meeting of the co-inhabitants in Tartu, where we discussed SWOT and made the crisis plan for our village. It was great to do the last one because I knew quite a lot about how to react in a crisis situation (I have passed one training about crisis psychology) so I could talk along all the time. It felt good because once in a while I felt again that I'm studying something that I like. I hadn't felt like this the whole week. After the big meeting we had oue christmas party where we danced traditional Estonian songs, sang, ate and talked a lot. We also played the traditional Memory-game that is usual for the co-inhabs Christmas party. It was a really good day.
Then the next day I tried to study a bit which didn't work out. In the evening I went to the village, because it was Judith2's and Rasmus's leaving party. Oh, we danced a lot and the party was so beautiful. There were balloons and everything. After the official party Judith and Rasmus tried to send out a hot-air balloon that they made themselves, but it didn't fly. After that we sat and talked a while in Vana maja and then went to sauna also. One of the great things that happened that night was that I met Fred again and found out that he wasn't angry with me at all for the youth exchange in France. Oh, it made me very happy because I had thought for years that he was angry with me and didn't come to Rõuge because of that.... Anyway, it was really great to talk to Fred and see him again.
It was great to relax from exams also. The sauna was just great. We jumped into snow a lot and made water war with Ludwig. It was a really great sauna party in a while. I also got to know Ludwig better and I talked to Huko and Lauris a lot about EVS and making projects. I saw Jiri and Merlin after a long time and had a very relaxing night after two weeks of constant studying. These are the tiny (or actually very big) things that make my life happy.
I came back to Tartu the following morning by bus and started studying for exams. Which I am doing still. Because I've got loads of them...
And tomorrow I'll get the answer about my EVS hopefully. I am holding all my fingers, toes and thumbs also. Can't wait....
Anyway.
My tattoos are now completely healed which means that I can go to sauna again. And so I did. But I'll start from the very beginning.
The weekend before the last one I went to village again. I was in Rootsi maja. It felt so good to be there again after about a month that I hadn't been in the village. I went to the meeting of the co-inhabitants and met the another EVS volunteer, Ludwig, finally. I had wanted to meet him since he came to the village, because he is new and I want to meet new people. And I was happy to admit that he's as cool or even cooler than all the other volunteers that have been working in the village. From the very first moment I started talking to him, we had a lot to talk about. Which is great. Anyway, it was a great weekend at the village- I did my homework and talked to all the people I hadn't seen in a while.
Then I came back to Tartu where I did many exams again....
Then came the last weekend.
Firstly, on Friday we had a big meeting of the co-inhabitants in Tartu, where we discussed SWOT and made the crisis plan for our village. It was great to do the last one because I knew quite a lot about how to react in a crisis situation (I have passed one training about crisis psychology) so I could talk along all the time. It felt good because once in a while I felt again that I'm studying something that I like. I hadn't felt like this the whole week. After the big meeting we had oue christmas party where we danced traditional Estonian songs, sang, ate and talked a lot. We also played the traditional Memory-game that is usual for the co-inhabs Christmas party. It was a really good day.
Then the next day I tried to study a bit which didn't work out. In the evening I went to the village, because it was Judith2's and Rasmus's leaving party. Oh, we danced a lot and the party was so beautiful. There were balloons and everything. After the official party Judith and Rasmus tried to send out a hot-air balloon that they made themselves, but it didn't fly. After that we sat and talked a while in Vana maja and then went to sauna also. One of the great things that happened that night was that I met Fred again and found out that he wasn't angry with me at all for the youth exchange in France. Oh, it made me very happy because I had thought for years that he was angry with me and didn't come to Rõuge because of that.... Anyway, it was really great to talk to Fred and see him again.
It was great to relax from exams also. The sauna was just great. We jumped into snow a lot and made water war with Ludwig. It was a really great sauna party in a while. I also got to know Ludwig better and I talked to Huko and Lauris a lot about EVS and making projects. I saw Jiri and Merlin after a long time and had a very relaxing night after two weeks of constant studying. These are the tiny (or actually very big) things that make my life happy.
I came back to Tartu the following morning by bus and started studying for exams. Which I am doing still. Because I've got loads of them...
And tomorrow I'll get the answer about my EVS hopefully. I am holding all my fingers, toes and thumbs also. Can't wait....
The daydreams of people would show the character of people a lot more than their face if the dreams were told sincerely. - 4th Dec.
Every minute you turn the corner of the mouth downwards, you'll lose 60 seconds of happiness. -9th Dec.
Endlessness ends with love. - 12/13th Dec.
Every minute you turn the corner of the mouth downwards, you'll lose 60 seconds of happiness. -9th Dec.
Endlessness ends with love. - 12/13th Dec.
I feel....
tired, exhausted. It seems like my body is going to stop responding soon. My sleeping cycle is messed up, I feel tired all the time. It's hard to focus on important things. It feels like I'm having a hangover for 3 days already, my eyes are hurting, I sleep very little time at night and some time during the day but it doesn't help, because when I want to sleep during the day then a lot of people call me all the time and wake me up. And my neighbours decide to have guests or turn on the music also at the same time I try to sleep when I get home from my exams...
Oh, only 6 more days.
It's my own decision to live like this. And I'm glad, because soon it'll be over.
Having 3 exams and 2 tests in one week when there's a weekend before when you can't study, is not the best choice I've made.
But I can manage that.
And I'll be stronger afterwards. I'm testing my limits.
Oh I like tests!
Oh, only 6 more days.
It's my own decision to live like this. And I'm glad, because soon it'll be over.
Having 3 exams and 2 tests in one week when there's a weekend before when you can't study, is not the best choice I've made.
But I can manage that.
And I'll be stronger afterwards. I'm testing my limits.
Oh I like tests!
12/12/2010
I'm wordless now.
I just got a call from some guy named Heigo who told he had my number in his mobile phone and he started calling to all the numbers he had to find out which numbers are still existing. So. He had my number with the name Kacey. He has lived in Tartu and has not been to Rõuge many times. He told me that maybe we know each other through RATE.ee or something. Anyway, I'm gonna meet him on Wednesday.
I have no idea who this guy is, from where I know him, when I met or spoke to him or whatsoever. Kinda weird. He remembered that I had blonde hair and was from Rõuge.
I'm dazed.
But it's really cool to know there are people in the world who try to warm up old friendships, although I have no idea who this person is.
But I'll find it out on Wednesday.
I have no idea who this guy is, from where I know him, when I met or spoke to him or whatsoever. Kinda weird. He remembered that I had blonde hair and was from Rõuge.
I'm dazed.
But it's really cool to know there are people in the world who try to warm up old friendships, although I have no idea who this person is.
But I'll find it out on Wednesday.
12/06/2010
Behind blue eyes
is not a song by the Limp Bizkit, but is a song by The Who.
Yeah, I am not even surprised any more.
This kind of discoveries are not rarities for me anymore.
Yeah, I am not even surprised any more.
This kind of discoveries are not rarities for me anymore.
12/01/2010
Where the wild roses grow....
The beauty is in your eyes. I just found my new favourite flower.Look brightly and carefully and you'll see your joy, because happiness might be blind but it's not invisible. - December
I wish you to live truly in every day of your life. - 1st Dec
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