9/29/2010

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To dream about the person you would like to be is to waist the person you are. - 26/27th Sept.
Per aspera ad astra! -30th Sept.

9/23/2010

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You can sense a miracle a tiny bit when you stop for a moment and stay quiet. -23rd Sept.

9/19/2010

Life is beautiful

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As I told in my previous post, I went to see The Bootleg Beatles. At first it was really weird to go there, because it was a concert and I had to dress up like I was going to a concert. Then, when finaly came the time to get into the concert hall, I saw a lot of old people coming there, too. There were really few youngsters. The concert started with "I want to hold your hand". It felt amazing. The first two songs were just the feeling I always get when I go to see some huge band perform. It feels unreal, like you are going to cry of happiness. Anyway, my good feeling was soon replaced by shame and I could only blame Estonians, yeah, my own nationality, for this. The band tried to get the audience clapping and Estonians just clapped for 30 seconds and then stopped. I clapped all the time, howled, when the songs ended and tried to get people more active. No results. Then the band sang "Help" and wanted people to sing along- 0nly few people sang. It was miserable. Then there was the break. Before the break ended I complained in phone to my friends, how awfully ignorant and cold Estonians are, so that people around me could hear it as much as possible (I was quite loud and showed my irritation out pretty well). Then the second part of the concert got better and better. There came a lot of good songs, people started to clap more and when there were two last songs ("Lady Madonna" and "Hey Jude") half of the audience stood up and danced and clapped and sang along. Oh, it felt a lot better then. When the official part of the concert ended, people called the band back on the stage and they sang "Let it be" and "Back in the USSR". Oh, many people sang along to it. And danced. Even the old man who was sitting next to me and was very official-looking. All of a sudden the concert felt a lot better and I could be proud of my nationality again. One thing that made me sad, was that there were so many good songs that weren't played. I was really hoping to hear "Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds" and "She Loves You". But, in conclusion, it was a nice concert and worth the money.

On Saturday I had a very small birthday-party with my closest friends in Tartu. I cooked the whole day (after I got back from Tallinn). Typically to me- there was too much food again. But, no problem- Kerttu is studying here today and will help us to eat it :) Anyway, it was a really ice birthday- my friends know my deepest wishes so well, although I have never told these to them. I got a locket that has clock inside as a present. There was also one drinking game and hand-made box of chocolate. Right now I am looking at this locket and I feel so happy. It is really cute and the watch inside is very detailed. Oh, I have the best friends in the world. So yesterday we drank, ate, drank some more and talked and tried to play this drinking game without the drinking rules as we were already drinking. It was the wooden-tower-game. Obviously the tower fell down a lot. Then we played guitar and sang along and did a lot of jamming. Haha.... The lyrics of the song we made about Kerttu are still making me smile a lot. It was like Estonian regilaul in a way and had lyrics like "Ja ta mõtleb ja mõtleb ja mõtleb ja mõtleb......" (And she's thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking....". Yeah, it was a great night. Kerttu stayed here overnight so we were up until 3 in the morning (we went to sleep because we have to study today) and we talked a lot about music. It reminded me of the times when we were still living in the hostal alltogether.... I love you, my friends. All of you. What have I done to deserve you?

Right now I am sitting on my bed, Kerttu is studying besides me, Kirke is studying on her bed. The incence sticks with the smell of chocolate are burning, candles are burning on the table. It's raining hard outside so that the small light inside is turned on. The music in my computer is based on The Weepies' song "All good things" and the playlist is really relaxing. It feels so cosy and this moment should last forever. I am so happy and life is truly beautiful.
The quote for today is also perfect- "Laying in bed in a dark foggy morning is pure happiness." -19/20 Sept.

With a little help from my friends

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I went to the Bootleg Beatles concert yesterday and they played a song "With a little help from my friends" and the audience started to clap properly for the band when this song came on. Before that it was really hard for the band to get the audience to be active. I thought that Estonian audience sucks- they are clappimg for the cover more than they clap for the band's own song. And then I talked to my friends about it and we started discussing that who is the original author of the song. And I googled it. What was the reply? Of course, the song was by The Beatles. I thought since today that it was made by Joe Cocker. And I didn't have The Beatles version of the song in my computer, either. So, that was a damn surprise to me. I mean, how on earth did I fail in this so hard? Shame on me.

But I'll talk more about the concert tomorrow, when I'm more awake.

9/15/2010

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Kicking fallen autumn leaves with feet into the air is happiness. - 15th September

9/12/2010

Psycho-puppies and hillcimbing

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My last week was busier than it has been before.
Firstly, I started going to aerobics with Liisu. Oh, it feels so great again. I had missed aerobics.
Then, on Thursday, after school, was our psycho-puppies meeting party. It was in Vahi Tare, which meant that I had to go there by car unless I find myself a sober driver, because the place is at the other side of the city. But, Liisu offered to be my sober driver. Bless her! She is such a cool person :) So, me and my coursemate Grete went there with Liisu and were actually one of the first ones there. So we helped to prepare stuff for the evening. People gathered an hour later than they were expected so everything was delayed a bit. We opened the event with the psycho-traditional boat-race game- it's a drinking game, where people are in a circle and one person starts to drink and then the one on the left side of the person etc. If the person has drank all the alco from the cup they have to put it to on their head, upside down. Yeah, I tried to drink properly this time, but there was still some alco left to the bottom of the cup, so I poured it onto my head. Well, it felt a little wet. After that there was the game, where two groups have to stand on bed sheets and they are supposed to be packed there really tight. Then they have to turn the sheet around so that nobody will step off or fall of from the sheet. Unfortunately there were too few people standing on the sheets, so they turned it around quite easily. It took only 2,5 minutes for them. When I did this game in Turkey, we couldn't even move and it took us at least 15 minutes to turn the sheet around. Anyway, after this game came the theatre-part where puppies had to make a play from the word they were given. Or try to explain what the word, they were given, meant. The words were (I'll tell in Estonian, in English they are pretty boring, I think) "militaartillikas", "visuaalne pervert" (visual pervert) and then there was one more, I can't recall right now. Anyway, the play about visual pervert was really good and we decided with jury that it has to win. So it won. Obviously. After the play there was sauna and disco and during that people started to leave, because there wasn't anything more planned and some people were already very drunk. So we danced a little, chatted a little. It was really great to talk to Puuk, who is from my old high school. I also talked to some other puppies- one of them was Dima, with whom I talked a lot also during the first meeting in THE park. Anyway, everybody took a lot of pictures with my camera, so I will upload some of them to here also, if my internet allows that.... (Yeah, hold the thumbs)
On Saturday there was the Madmoto weekend or to be more detailed- the nightly hillclimbing competition and the race of old and broken cars and also the race of self-built freak-motorcycles. I had to be in this split minery place named Juraski (:D) an hour before it started, so that we could park our car close and could have enough time before the broken-cars race started, because we had to count how many circles cars did during the race. This time there were 10 cars in the competition. I had to count the circles of two of these cars. The race had four or five rounds and all my cars were on the 2-3 place during most of the race. But for the last race, one of my cars was already too wrecked. But my another car took the second place. Hah! Then, during the race, one car burned down, it was thrown down from the precipice and even the scoop that threw it down there almost fell down. Everybody were looking forward for an explosion, but this didn't come. I personally would have enjoyed some more action. It would have made the event even more interesting. Then after the car-race came the freaky-motorbikes' race. One of the bikes was completely built out of wood, only the engine and one other part (I don't remember exactly, which, and I couldn't definetely translate it either) were made from metal. One of the bikes had a toilet seat for a seat and there was a place for alco at the back of this bike. They were really funny to look at. Then after this race came the hillclimbing competition. Unfortunately there were so few people in competition. Well, not a surprise, because this competition was not part of the master's competition. But yeah, I was hoping to see a lot of racers I know from my work from past years, but most of them weren't there. Oh, I have to go to a Estonian cup competition. The competition went well: Ummi- one of the masters, climbed to top of the hill with 8,8 seconds. This was fast. And some more people went to the top. I could say that the event was well organized. The commentator was also really good- he told us jokes about Opel, but when he discovered that Opel won the broken-cars race, he was "speechless". Haha. But yeah, the comments were good, sometimes we were laughing our asses off.

Now I'm going to study some German and deal with my EVS stuff again. Hold your thumbs for me now, people! Let's hope, I will get a yes-answer from some institutions now. I'll hopefully find out this week.... Oi oi oi...

Tschüs!

PS: Tiny pieces of joy in this complicated world are the last hiding places. -11th September
PS2: My internet is obviously too slow.

9/10/2010

Ha!

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Who will get rid of her beginners driver's licence next Wednesday?
Yeah, you're right. Me!
Be jealous. :)

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Eeach person, like Moon, has their hidden side that they never show to anybody. - 7th September

9/06/2010

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What you dream of or whatever you can manage - do it! Start now. - September

Each place you love, is the world for you. - 3rd September

9/04/2010

Biffy Clyro - Bubbles

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I am going to see them. Can you even imagine this? It is a dream. If I couldn't see Korn, then I will see this. And this is going to be just perfect! Really. I wanted to go and see them only when I had heard their album "Puzzle" and then I listened to this. Oh my god.
They are legend.
Just listen, this says it all...

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Every time I wash socks, there is at least one missing. And I discover that after washing them. And then I have to do a research on where has the missing sock gone.
It's a damn curse. :)

9/03/2010

Summer's gone, school's begun, things have changed, nothing's the same

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So. I finished the last post about my life from the point where I was going to go to Huko's wedding. Well, yeah. The wedding was awesome. A lot of hansa and home-made beer. We watched punk-singing festival alltogether and danced and sang to it. It was really awesome.
On Sunday, after Huko's wedding, Kaie and Kirke came to the village. We went boating and made a cake and sent away Frederike. Yeah, the last volunteer from the row of every-week leaving parties. Then after that I worked a lot.
I had couple of free days on the 20th and 21st of August. I volunteered in Võru City Days' in one handicrafts place where I had to fold boxes and cover them with cloth. I had to teach it to people. Then the following day I went to a hunter's summer days where I tried to catch fish, but was unlucky at it.... I've been out of practice, obviously. After that I went to my grandma's sister's birthday and then went back to work. At work we had a lot of sauna parties. These sauna parties weren't like the ones I was used to. People have changed. I really liked the new people in the gang but some old people were almost unrecognizable by their behaviour. Sad.
On the 26th I had a class reunion. It was really great to see my old classmates and talk to them. It wasn't like basic school any more. People have changed in four years so much that you can't even recognize them if you don't know it's them. But we had fun. I went to a neigbhour tourist-farm with two of my classmates to ask if there's a guitar we could borrow to play. There was only a bunch of women (maybe a 100) and then two or three guys. Hmm. Interesting....
About the class reunion. Well, a lot of people thought of themselves as bosses and thought they were better than others, which caused a lot of arguments. But then again, I talked to some of my classmates in a way I had never talked to them. In conclusion I can say, that it was a beautiful night out.
After my class reunion there was a summer ending disco in the village on Saturday. Oh, we danced a lot. The DJ-s were from Club Madhouse so there was different music from the usual. Afterwards we had a sauna party again and I spoke to Jaanus until 5 o'clock about really interesting topics I can't write here. But it was a great talk.
On Sunday morning I went home to see Maris and Maive who were supposed to visit me. It was really great to see them again, too. I spent almost the whole day with them
On Monday there was the huge village-meeting about the working rules in the village. It lasted almost the whole day. In the evening I went to Tartu to see the new psycho-puppies. Oh, it reminded me of last year, when I was a puppie. The people I spoke to tried to impress each other with the things they had done in their lives etc. In the end we went to Zavood where my friends also came and had a lovely evening out. It feels so great to be in Tartu again. I needed it. I needed something different to my life than just work. I missed my friends and now they are again in the reach of a hand.
It is school also again. I've had only 4 subjects but I already love them. This year's subjects are very interesting and I'm really looking forward to learn new things. I know it sounds geeky, but that's the way things seem to me right now.
I also bought a ticket to see Biffy Clyro in October. Can you imagine my joy! Biffy Clyro is performing in Estonia and the tickets are only 350 kroons! Wow. Really cool. This is just wonderful. CAn't wait to see the concert already. Only less than 2 months left to it.
And I'm gonna see The Bootleg Beatles on the 17th.
And next week is the hillclimb.
Oh, life is so busy.
And has changed so much in just 1 week.
I've realised a lot of things and made some decisions. Now I just have to hope I can actually keep them.

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The weather is a perfect reflection of my mood.